"holy pink capri's batman" - AvengerBelle

I can't sleep again its been this way for days if not months now , on the rare nights i do doze of its for an hour or 2 at a time then im wide awake again , the last two nights i doze of and instantly have some really fucked up dreams and im right back wide awake an hour or less after falling asleep , I tried to sleep in the day time yesterday because sometimes I sleep better in the day .. that didnt work at all , just tossed and turned and was restless.. tried to sleep again last night and same thing really fucked up dreams and right back up , so here I sit bored fidgity and restless with nothing to do at 4am . Last night I played with PhotoShop but I dont even really feel like pulling that up right now and I am in self critical mode anything I do will be shit anyhow so why bother with any of it ... Im really not sure how much longer I can go on like this .. I cant think straight have the time words dont form correctly it takes a lot of thought to get things out half decently . I do things I dont remember doing or say things I dont remember saying Emotions and thoughts are running in pure unstopable form and I am certin that is a bad bad thing because I know soon Im going to crack.. Im going to fall apart and that isnt good at all not right now its just a bad time to let that happen..